Waking up some mornings I feel as though it’s just me against the world. Everything that is supposed to go right goes wrong. That vicious cycle of life deals you a hard blow and no one, I mean no one comes to your rescue, instead of giving you a band-aid for your wound they pour salt on it. It took me awhile to realize that everyone that smiles in your face doesn’t have your best interest at heart.
It’s always the ones that you have known the longest that develops that deadly disease of jealousy and becomes your biggest hater instead of your biggest fan. If it’s me against the world so be it. I will stand alone, but when I become famous please no crowding.
I wasn’t looking for a relationship and didn’t care that you fixed my tire, it was your job and no I wasn’t tipping you.
As I walked away I looked back at you thinking I hope I never see you again.
Two months later another nail.
Denying your offers, not interested.
You’re cute, but not all that, you walk on your tip-toes for goodness sake.
I gave in and went on a date with you and one year later we were married.
I wasn’t looking for love, but I fell in love with you and I thank God everyday for that nail that sealed the deal.
So he pops the question and you say YESSSSSSSSS without hesitation. You can’t wait to tell your parents so they can share the excitement with you, but to your surprise they are not happy. After months of pretending to like your boyfriend they really despise him and think he’s a no good loser. You are hurt, and your heart is torn into pieces. Elope, yes that’s the plan!!!!!!! Who are they to stand in the way of true love???????? Parents just don’t understand. You lock yourself up in your room pouting thinking life is cruel and then you hear a knock on the door it’s your parents. They still don’t like him but if he makes you happy they will put their feelings aside. After a year of planning the day is finally here, you have the perfect venue, the most beautiful dress and you’re surrounded by your family and friends. You say I do; you’re happy, you have taken his last name and become his wife. Life is perfect…. a year later you have twins, he has the perfect job, you’re a stay at home mom. Then it happens, you catch him with another woman, he says it’s a friend…. you ponder his answer but he looks at her the way he use to look at you. Your parents were right, two babies later you are packing up your belongings headed back to a place you swore you would never come back to, if you had only listened to them.
What is breakfast to you? Breakfast to me is when you sit around talking with family enjoying a delicious meal that was prepared from the heart. You seldom see commercials that embrace this, commercials today show everyone on the go with a breakfast bar or a bowl of cereal, do people even cook breakfast anymore?? I woke up this morning excited about preparing grits, sausage, eggs, bacon, pancakes and cinnamon rolls for my family. Why so much? Growing up I didn’t have a lot so I never want my children to experience that feeling at all. I pray blessings upon you and yours that if you’re not coming together for breakfast that you come together for lunch or dinner, family time is so important.
They want to voice their opinion but don’t want anyone to know who they are. Mysterious yet intriguing, one who hides their identity from social media websites but always have so much to say. Commenting on everything that is public, sometimes being very rude, but when you go to their profile to see the face behind the comment you find a flower or a quote where their picture should be. I get it, the world we live in makes one want to hide their identity, but this shouldn’t be an option for cowards who sit behind a computer screen and type words that they wouldn’t normally say to anyone’s face. I’ve labeled these people the “big bad wolf” huffing and puffing blowing nothing down. They see you and run the other way, you don’t know who they are but they know you. Once you block them they catfish, meaning they assume another identity with a different flower and quote because your posts are obviously worth following.
This has been the most disappointing day of my life but I stand strong because I put my trust in God not in man. You see when God takes you out of your comfort zone it’s to help you grow not to see you fail. Faith is not needed when things are going perfect, but when things around you are crumbling. No matter how much I dislike it, I have to grow to love it because some obstacles you just can’t go around you have to go through.
One door closes, then another one and another one! My head is spinning tears are streaming down my face trying to figure out, how can so much chaos happen in a day or what did I do to deserve it. The enemy snickers thinking this is my fate but my heart smiles because trouble don’t last always. What is meant for my bad will ultimately be for my good.
I say you couldn’t possibly walk a day in my shoes and you would reply you couldn’t possibly walk a day in mine, both statements are true because we all have battles to fight and they are ours solely to win. At the end of the day I gotta keep pushing through and so do you right out of our comfort zone!!
Growing up I was always reminded of this one rule “What goes on in this house, stays in this house.” That rule definitely didn’t apply to some because if so reality television wouldn’t be so prevalent. I guess money talks because the stuff they show on television today is not filtered at all, people will expose everything that is meant to stay behind closed doors for the right price. Growing up as a teenager the most exciting thing for me to watch on television was soap operas but they were off limits for young teenage girls. I would hear my mom on the phone discussing Victor and Niki on the Young and Restless with her friend from the next street over, this to me was what a secret was supposed to be. When I got older I couldn’t wait to watch the soaps but as I was watching I thought to myself um… is this what my momma couldn’t wait to watch at 12:30 pm… Things were discreet back then but now no holds are barred and nothing is off limits.