Value your Name

Growing up my grandfather would always tell me that a young girl should value her name. I didn’t understand it then because my grandfather would always talk in riddles. As I got older I began to understand why it was so important to value your name. As young women we are often so hasty to find love, we often rely on our clothing to attract men instead of our intellect.

Maybe it’s possible for you to find love at the age of 16, but at that age I was still trying to find myself. You may think you’ve found the right one but then it happens y’all break up and then it’s another and another and another. You keep coming up empty and by this time your name has become the talk of town. “That Girl is loose,” they say.

Wow! This is what my grandfather meant when he said value your name. A man’s name is seldom exposed to so much gossip but a woman’s name seems to be fair game.

I am grateful that my grandfather talked in riddles and thought it not robbery to educate me about life. I learned that a good name and reputation is all you have so hold on to it and don’t let go.

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Church

Recently a church across the street caught on fire and speculation began to float around the community of how it happened. First they said kids playing with matches, then they said drug addicts getting high. The cause will probably never be known, but one thing I know for sure is that the building is no longer suitable to be a place of worship.

The day after the incident I went across the street and looked at the church. The building was a total loss, how could anyone ever worship within those walls again? As I thought on those things the Lord spoke to my spirit and said “you are the church, you worship inward and that flows outward.” The Lord reminded me that he is not coming back for the building but the spirit that dwells within us that has accepted him as Lord and Savior.

Then I asked the Lord about Hebrews 12:23 and assembling together; I don’t mind assembling I just don’t want to get so caught up in earthly buildings and neglect the building that is holding my soul. Nowadays people are bringing Satan in the church with the ways of the world.

Then he continued with this reminder, it’s time to become a church that holds standards. As Paul witnessed this earthly body will suffer but my salvation comes from the Holy Spirit that dwells within . Stop focusing on the things going on around you and focus on me and my word. God continued, I’m coming back for a church without a spot or wrinkle, you must be ready when I return.

Faith over Fear

It was my wedding anniversary and I had heard from all of my children except one. It was not like my daughter to not call and I could feel an uneasy feeling in my gut. Just as those thoughts vanished I got a text that read “ma I love you.” A red flag went off so I called and the voice on the other end was terrifying. “Ma I am sick, but please don’t come get me until after my semester exams.” After a brief conversation I sat there still uneasy so I called back, but this time through FaceTime. What I saw would startle any parent, my daughter eyes were sunken in with dark circles, she had bags of vomit in her bed and she couldn’t move. At that moment I raced into action calling my friend to take that ride that seemed forever. At the time my daughter was attending school in Miami which was a two hour drive but seemed like the longest ride of my life. When I got there we rushed up to her room I didn’t know what to expect, all kind of thoughts raced through my head….we knocked and knocked then eventually the door cracked open, standing their being propped up by an umbrella was my baby girl.

I thought it was a virus, she had Nyquil on her bed and was telling me symptoms that sounded like the flu. As a mother I went into nurse mode, I would make her soup, give her meds she would be back to her old self in no time. She was finally resting and then morning came, when my daughter entered the room she was drenched in sweat, the look in her eyes told me she was scared I immediately called 911 which was the beginning of our faith over fear. Our local hospital thought it was her appendix, then they said it could be her gallbladder but after an X-ray it was determined to be a kidney stone so huge she would have to be transferred to another hospital. It wouldn’t pass it was lodged. The doctors decided they would do a procedure to drain urine from her kidneys and put in a nephrostomy tube and at that moment my daughter got sepsis, a life threatening complication from an infection. This infection had spread through my daughters body and she was immediately put in ICU after the nurse had called a code twice. Once the code was called fifteen medical professionals rushed in…. they plugged my daughter to all types of machines and gave me the look of despair.

I was angry and hurt that my daughter was going through this, she was only 19 years old!! I prayed and cried….cried and prayed. I sought the Lord and asked him to give me faith over fear. All the doctors said she wouldn’t make it and if she did she would not be the same healthy girl she was before. While in ICU she developed pneumonia, her organs began to shut down they had given up on her, and put her on a breathing machine…miraculously she released on April 29, 2017. We thought the nightmare was over but she still had to get surgery to remove the stone but when they went in to take it out she developed sepsis again.

This was not happening; had God forgotten about us and then I asked God to please increase my faith over the fear of losing my child and he did. He reminded me that he gave me this child and before she became mine she was his, he reminded me that all sickness is not unto death, he reminded me that my help comes from him not only when things are going good but during the bad as well. After being in three hospitals during a 5 month span my daughter was able to walk out of those hospitals. This little girl had to regain strength to walk again, she had a tube in her back and had to walk around with a nephrology bag, she had to get her lungs drained, she had pneumonia, countless fevers…. It has been a year since this ordeal and she is now closer to home attending another university. She is healthy, happy, and healed!! I am so thankful to God for showing me that even during the midst of trials he never left us.

My daughters tattoo ….

Two Wrongs

I am a strong woman, built Ford tough. I have been in some relationships that made me look back and wonder how I got through but as Celia said….

It seems since Eve’s mishap women have been portrayed as the weakest link. I could argue the fact that everyone has made a mistake but that still wouldn’t justify her actions and why we as woman have so much pain in childbirth because of her wrongdoing.

Genesis 3:16

Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee.

Although she did wrong I am also reminded that man followed suit by eating from the “Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil” as well.

Genesis 3:6

And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat.

No one did right in this situation so to me they both failed at their quest to please the Lord. Learn from this; if you fall down don’t stay there get back up.

Eve and Adam were both wrong but the woman shouldn’t have to carry the dot on her forehead while the man walks around dot free. God was gracious and merciful to forgive them both, even though he made them leave the garden he spared their lives.

Women it’s time to value your husbands, men it’s time to value your wives. It’s time to walk in love and don’t let mistakes cause you to give up on the marriage that God ordained in your life. The enemy is trying to find a way to get in between you and your spouse, cast him out of your home by fasting and prayer.

Joseph

The son of Rachel; could his fate have anything to do with his mothers sins? ( Genesis 31:19) There was no reason for Rachel to steal from her father, some say her sin is the reason she wasn’t buried with the others. Was her actions the reason for Joseph’s turbulent life?

Left without a mother, he was raised by his father Jacob (Israel) and surrounded by his eleven brothers who despised him for his dreams and their fathers love for him. Jealousy was evident, how dare this youngster tell his elder brothers that one day they would bow to him. (Genesis 37:9)

The hatred they had in their hearts was evident. When they got the chance they got rid of Joseph by selling him into bondage. (Genesis 15:13-15) A young man betrayed by his brothers and sent to a foreign land, but things would only get worse for Joseph when Potiphar’s wife accuses him of rape. (Genesis 39:13-19)

In the midst of being confined in jail one would think Joseph would have lost his faith in God but he didn’t he continued to pray and trust God. He didn’t harbor hatred or resentment for those who had plotted against him.

Joseph was a faithful man who put his life in God’s hand and by doing so we read that Joseph was restored and rejoined with his family. He held no hard feelings but received them with open arms. (Genesis 50:15-21)

This story of Joseph is how we must live our lives. No matter who plots against us we must show love. Remembering that God is Love. No matter what their intentions are just know that God is fighting the battle on your behalf.

Luke 6:27

But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you.

Adam and Eve

In the beginning God created man in his own image and because of Adam’s loneliness, he was given a helpmate. As God put Adam into a deep sleep he used one of his ribs to make who Adam would call later “woman” because she was taken out of man (Genesis 2:23).

This biblical couple had the best of everything, no worries and only one stipulation and that was to not eat of the tree. “But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it.” ( Genesis 2:17)

Along came deception in the form of a snake who tricked Eve into thinking, nothing bad would happen to her if she ate from the tree. Eating from this tree would open up her eyes and she would know the difference between good and evil. Shucks she could even share the delectable fruit with her husband.

Because of their disobedience to God they were kicked out of the Garden of Eden, for not obeying his word, not only were they punished but so was the serpent.

What’s good for the goose is good for the gander.

Fast forward to 2018 and people are still being tricked by the enemy. If God tells you to do something obey him. The Bible says obedience is better than a sacrifice (1 Samuel 15:22). There are a lot of Adam’s and Eve’s walking amongst us being tricked daily by the enemy. It’s time to stop thinking your way is better than God’s way.

Against the World

Waking up some mornings I feel as though it’s just me against the world. Everything that is supposed to go right goes wrong. That vicious cycle of life deals you a hard blow and no one, I mean no one comes to your rescue, instead of giving you a band-aid for your wound they pour salt on it. It took me awhile to realize that everyone that smiles in your face doesn’t have your best interest at heart.

It’s always the ones that you have known the longest that develops that deadly disease of jealousy and becomes your biggest hater instead of your biggest fan. If it’s me against the world so be it. I will stand alone, but when I become famous please no crowding.

A Nail

I wasn’t looking for a relationship and didn’t care that you fixed my tire, it was your job and no I wasn’t tipping you.

As I walked away I looked back at you thinking I hope I never see you again.

Two months later another nail.

Denying your offers, not interested.

You’re cute, but not all that, you walk on your tip-toes for goodness sake.

I gave in and went on a date with you and one year later we were married.

I wasn’t looking for love, but I fell in love with you and I thank God everyday for that nail that sealed the deal.

Dream

I remember being asked in high school “Sabrina what do you want to be when you grow up?” My response was given and the teacher laughed.  As I looked around the classroom all of my peers giggled as well, I wanted to run out of the classroom but I sat in my seat and looked at my teacher as he moved on to the next student who answered DOCTOR.

 “You can be anything you set your mind to Jonathan,” he said. Why couldn’t I get that response?? I graduated high school and went on to get my AA in Journalism but my dream fell short, never confident in myself to move forward so I quit midway.

As years passed I continued to write poems and short stories never thinking my work was good enough because my self esteem was deflated by my English teacher who thought my dreams as an author was unreachable. 

Last year I decided to aim high and put my work out there, never in my wildest dream did I expect the feedback I would receive, everyone loved it! Overcome with happiness I put out several more books and the same response… who’s laughing now Mr. English Teacher I did it, I became an AUTHOR!!

Yes to Love

So he pops the question and you say YESSSSSSSSS without hesitation. You can’t wait to tell your parents so they can share the excitement with you, but to your surprise they are not happy. After months of pretending to like your boyfriend they really despise him and think he’s a no good loser. You are hurt, and your heart is torn into pieces. Elope, yes that’s the plan!!!!!!! Who are they to stand in the way of true love???????? Parents just don’t understand. You lock yourself up in your room pouting thinking life is cruel and then you hear a knock on the door it’s your parents. They still don’t like him but if he makes you happy they will put their feelings aside. After a year of planning the day is finally here, you have the perfect venue, the most beautiful dress  and you’re surrounded by your family and friends. You say I do; you’re happy, you have taken his last name and become his wife. Life is perfect…. a year later you have twins, he has the perfect job, you’re a stay at home mom. Then it happens, you catch him with another woman, he says it’s a friend…. you ponder his answer but he looks at her the way he use to look at you. Your parents were right, two babies later you are packing up your belongings headed back to a place you swore you would never come back to, if you had only listened to them.