Against the World

Waking up some mornings I feel as though it’s just me against the world. Everything that is supposed to go right goes wrong. That vicious cycle of life deals you a hard blow and no one, I mean no one comes to your rescue, instead of giving you a band-aid for your wound they pour salt on it. It took me awhile to realize that everyone that smiles in your face doesn’t have your best interest at heart.

It’s always the ones that you have known the longest that develops that deadly disease of jealousy and becomes your biggest hater instead of your biggest fan. If it’s me against the world so be it. I will stand alone, but when I become famous please no crowding.

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Christmas Countdown

The turkey is yet to be cooked and the pies are yet to be baked, but that is not stopping our favored stores from setting up Christmas displays. Jingle Bells and Frosty the Snowman are being played over the PA system as you walk around trying to get your fixings for Thanksgiving, kids are begging their parents for toys that Santa is supposed to bring. Growing up I always felt like Thanksgiving was a cheated holiday, meaning so many are focused on Black Friday they miss the importance of spending time with family. Last year some stores didn’t close they stayed open around the clock, people are gobbling down food trying to catch sales. It’s hard to imagine we only have 37 more days until Christmas I’m just waiting on the five days for Thanksgiving so I can eat and spend time with my family.

A Nail

I wasn’t looking for a relationship and didn’t care that you fixed my tire, it was your job and no I wasn’t tipping you.

As I walked away I looked back at you thinking I hope I never see you again.

Two months later another nail.

Denying your offers, not interested.

You’re cute, but not all that, you walk on your tip-toes for goodness sake.

I gave in and went on a date with you and one year later we were married.

I wasn’t looking for love, but I fell in love with you and I thank God everyday for that nail that sealed the deal.

Facebook Challenge

There is always some type of challenge on Facebook. Let’s see we’ve seen the ice bucket challenge, the lighting yourself on fire challenge, the fainting challenge and many more. One challenge I have yet to see on Facebook is the do better challenge.

Logging into my account I see the same people doing the same thing day in and day out with no change in sight. How about challenging yourself to do better.

Change is good, one should want better for themselves; more money, and more opportunities.

Let’s see the help yourself challenge and the do better challenge become popular. I wonder how many people will do these.

Church Hurt

He did it, yes he abused me! I told you, but you made me believe it was my fault. “No man would just rape you unless you teased him,” she said. I stopped going to church; angry, sad, hurt and disappointed. Who else have you done this to? Using God’s place of worship as Satan’s playground.

For years I hated you, For years I hated the church, For years I stopped going to church.

The hate I felt towards you shattered relationships with others that I loved.

One morning I woke up with forgiveness in my heart. Forgiving the ones who didn’t stand beside me!! I forgave the church who didn’t believe you raped me and called me a liar, forgiving you for taking something away from me that I could never get back even when I cried out NO!

You were apart of the church, you were living for God, singing his songs, calling in his name!!

I will never forget what y’all did, but I forgive. You all put me through hell! Thankfully I kept my faith in God, thankfully I gave all my hurt to God and in return he gave me a piece of mind.

Anger

Have you ever been so angry you couldn’t write down the words to express the way you felt? Those angry words would have given your paper a black eye, but you decided to lie about the way you felt and let the words coexist with happiness that didn’t exist.

People tell you to not be angry, but when have you seen someone bury anger in a casket, oh RIP to the anger I feel towards you. I’ll make sure to buy anger a special flower to lay on top of his/her grave to let the world know I cared.

We were born with emotions that shape our way of living daily, some of those emotions the good Lord could have left out when he put me together.

Right now I am angry, can you tell?

Not angry at any specific person, only myself for not burying anger years ago!!!

Sex before Marriage

“I am not marrying her until we have had sex,” he says. Shaking my head, I walk away mumbling so loud the people around me are looking at me as if I should go get a psychiatric evaluation. I don’t think a person should be forced into a sexual relationship with anyone unless that is what they want. If they believe in not having sex before marriage, RESPECT that person wishes.

I don’t think he really loves her?

It seems to me “sex” is his basis for commitment. She will be crazy to give in and throw her values away for a relationship that may never make it to the altar after she gives in.

I know we live in the 20th century, but is that any reason for her to compromise her beliefs for supposed love?