Feelings

Forget those people who say you’re never happy, or always complaining. Truth be told you are happy, just not with them. Some people can drain your spirit and make you wish that you never knew them. Being alone is not such a bad thing, that moment when you can live in complete silence and not be obligated is a gift to yourself. It bothers me when I hear people say “I need someone,” the only person you need at that moment is you.

Ask yourself

Are you falling in love with being with a person or the title that accompanies the relationship? Before you answer that, think hard the next time you ponder settling.

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Memorial

You gave me your last name when my father wouldn’t.

You encouraged me to write when I told you I couldn’t.

You purchased materials that you said I would need.

You saw a talent in me that I couldn’t see.

You taught me to believe in my dreams.

And I am forever grateful that you believed in me

Dedicating all my books in your honor for without you I would be no author.

Against the World

Waking up some mornings I feel as though it’s just me against the world. Everything that is supposed to go right goes wrong. That vicious cycle of life deals you a hard blow and no one, I mean no one comes to your rescue, instead of giving you a band-aid for your wound they pour salt on it. It took me awhile to realize that everyone that smiles in your face doesn’t have your best interest at heart.

It’s always the ones that you have known the longest that develops that deadly disease of jealousy and becomes your biggest hater instead of your biggest fan. If it’s me against the world so be it. I will stand alone, but when I become famous please no crowding.

A Nail

I wasn’t looking for a relationship and didn’t care that you fixed my tire, it was your job and no I wasn’t tipping you.

As I walked away I looked back at you thinking I hope I never see you again.

Two months later another nail.

Denying your offers, not interested.

You’re cute, but not all that, you walk on your tip-toes for goodness sake.

I gave in and went on a date with you and one year later we were married.

I wasn’t looking for love, but I fell in love with you and I thank God everyday for that nail that sealed the deal.

Dream

I remember being asked in high school “Sabrina what do you want to be when you grow up?” My response was given and the teacher laughed.  As I looked around the classroom all of my peers giggled as well, I wanted to run out of the classroom but I sat in my seat and looked at my teacher as he moved on to the next student who answered DOCTOR.

 “You can be anything you set your mind to Jonathan,” he said. Why couldn’t I get that response?? I graduated high school and went on to get my AA in Journalism but my dream fell short, never confident in myself to move forward so I quit midway.

As years passed I continued to write poems and short stories never thinking my work was good enough because my self esteem was deflated by my English teacher who thought my dreams as an author was unreachable. 

Last year I decided to aim high and put my work out there, never in my wildest dream did I expect the feedback I would receive, everyone loved it! Overcome with happiness I put out several more books and the same response… who’s laughing now Mr. English Teacher I did it, I became an AUTHOR!!

Yes to Love

So he pops the question and you say YESSSSSSSSS without hesitation. You can’t wait to tell your parents so they can share the excitement with you, but to your surprise they are not happy. After months of pretending to like your boyfriend they really despise him and think he’s a no good loser. You are hurt, and your heart is torn into pieces. Elope, yes that’s the plan!!!!!!! Who are they to stand in the way of true love???????? Parents just don’t understand. You lock yourself up in your room pouting thinking life is cruel and then you hear a knock on the door it’s your parents. They still don’t like him but if he makes you happy they will put their feelings aside. After a year of planning the day is finally here, you have the perfect venue, the most beautiful dress  and you’re surrounded by your family and friends. You say I do; you’re happy, you have taken his last name and become his wife. Life is perfect…. a year later you have twins, he has the perfect job, you’re a stay at home mom. Then it happens, you catch him with another woman, he says it’s a friend…. you ponder his answer but he looks at her the way he use to look at you. Your parents were right, two babies later you are packing up your belongings headed back to a place you swore you would never come back to, if you had only listened to them.

Phonies 

If you aren’t helping me you’re hurting me.

If you aren’t supporting me you’re hindering me.

If you aren’t for me you’re against me.

If you aren’t talking to me you’re talking about me.

Don’t need a could’ve, would’ve, should’ve in my life.

People want to see you succeed as long as you don’t pass them. 

Phonies are defined as fake individuals who pretend they want the best for you but they really don’t. 

If you have phonies, fakes, insincere, or deceitful people in your life weed them out until they are all gone.