Faith vs. Fear

I haven’t sold a lot of books, been discouraged along the way, but my faith never wavered because being an author is my destiny! Learning to never give up on my dreams even when others don’t support me because everyone can’t see my vision.

You will find out who is truly there for you when you start to grow, it should be something inside of you that wants better, something inside of you that  won’t to settle, a drive, a push….

For me I am pushing with all my might to be successful and success doesn’t come easy, but if you are determined you can make it!! Learning to keep pushing because at the end of that long bumpy road there is a reward.

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Have you Ever

🎼 Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry, have you ever needed something so bad you can’t sleep at night – Brandy  

As a young woman growing up in the 90’s you would take songs that were relatable to the situations in your life and make them your anthem. I remember singing this song until I would fall asleep at night thinking I couldn’t go on without that special someone. I would blast my walkman with my headphones glued to my ears singing so loudly wishing he could hear me, wishing he could hear the hurt in my voice. 

I truly thought I was hurt by him not loving me, I truly thought I couldn’t go on, but as I grew older I realized the hurt that I felt didn’t come from him not loving me, but from me not loving myself. The love we shared was superficial; puppy love, crush love. 

One night my anthem was blasting and then I uttered “have you ever needed something so bad” and then tears began to flow; I had sung that particular verse several times relating it to that lost love that was once in my life, but this time I related it to my father who had abandoned me at birth, I  needed and wanted a relationship with him so badly. 

At that particular moment in time an overwhelming feeling came upon me and then it hit me like a ton of bricks,  all of those years without him, trying to fill a void of not having him  in my life with a boy that was only capable of loving the first woman he had ever known, his mother. I was actually using him, he was  using me, we were using each other. We both needed something from one another; affection which consisted of short kisses on the lip  that made you get butterflies in your stomach, conversations that would last on the phone until our momma made us hang up. It didn’t make it right,  but it was right in our eyes. 

Now that I know what love truly is I am thankful to have it in my life, it’s not superficial but real. Wondering did my dad ever love me, wondering did he ever have real love for my mom, just wondering. Through all my heartaches I have learned that in order to love anyone, you must first fall in love with yourself and be true to the feelings in your heart; hopefully, just hopefully my dad loved himself enough to love me. 

Spread the Word

I am an author and I am trying to get the word out about my material which is not an easy task. Sometimes you have to put yourself out there to catch that big break you’ve been waiting on. I’m winning when I’m losing because I’m determined. My passion is writing and even when people shoot me down I keep pushing. I know one day my books will get out there, I just know it!! Please follow me on Amazon to see my latest book releases.

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Book Release 

I can remember sitting in English class and my seventh grade teacher Dr. Crowell would give us writing assignments. I would sit there half of the period twiddling my thumbs because I didn’t know what to write about. One day as he was walking around the class he came and stood by my desk and said “writing is easy if you apply yourself, but the first thing you must do is brainstorm.” He then went to the board and start drawing these little circles that he would write words in and draw a line connecting to another circle. “This will help you become a great writer,” he said. That one lesson stuck with me and has helped me to channel my thoughts on paper before I even start writing a book. Dr. Crowell left this world sometime ago, but his teachings were instilled in me. I’m proud to say through brainstorming I was able to release “She Knew Too Much” on Amazon and it’s my second paperback release. To view my books click on the link below. 

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Small Town Gossip

Living in a small town you can expect everyone to know your mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, auntie, uncle, cousins; you get the picture, LOL. They not only know your family but your business as well. They will gossip about you and tell you to your face what they said. If you weren’t raised in that particular small town you stick out like a sore thumb and you get the evil eye when you try to smile and ease the stares. Small towns don’t want outsiders coming in they are only content with being around the people that they know and grew up with. Who cares if they have only one stoplight and no grocery store they rather travel two hours to get a decent meal and buy two weeks worth of groceries. I live in a small town and I wouldn’t change my upbringing for anything in this world , it made me more humble and appreciative especially when I moved to the city and no one spoke or held the door open; if you were coming they let it slam in your face 😱. It only made sense that my first book would be titled “Small Town Gossip.” Not to toot my own horn, but I’m proud of myself because I did something that some said I couldn’t. If you have a dream don’t stop dreaming, don’t stop doing, keep pushing forward, one no will someday equal a hundred yesssssss! If you want to know what it’s like to live in a small town, please check out my first paperback on Amazon, LINK BELOW. 

Small Town Gossip

Book Review: The Heirs

I have always been an avid reader and my love for books is endless, especially mysteries. I can recall going to Barnes and Noble just browsing the aisles looking for a book that would catch my eye, but never in a million years did I ever foresee myself as a book reviewer. I recently did my first book review on Blogging for Books and Goodreads. I usually try to read two books at a time, LOL.  I usually read my Kindle in the morning, and my hard copy book at night, no better feeling than being cuddled in the bed with a good book before you go to sleep. If you’re avid reader let’s connect on Goodreads.

“The Heirs” – book review below.


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The beginning of the book starts off intense, it reels you in by talking about Rupert Falkes fight with cancer and his willingness to live. You are introduced to his wife and children thinking this is the perfect family. Rupert came from nothing and became a millionaire in his own rights, his wife had a great upbringing but didn’t aquire love until she met Rupert. The Falkes seem like your typical family, married with 5 boys and living the American dream until Rupert Falkes dies and the truth is revealed. I loved the book, not what I expected which was excellent. I received this book courtesy of Blogging for Books.

Living Testimony 

This morning as I got dressed for church I began to reflect on my 44 years of life on this earth. Nothing that I have done or did allowed me to wake up this morning but God’s grace and mercy. Out of all the mornings, why did I reflect today? I could recall being shot at, being raped, colliding with a semi-truck but with each recollection I saw God holding my hand. You may think why would God be there during the hard times and not help you, he did help me he gave me strength to endure. 


God has a purpose and plan for my life, I am a living testimony; by me telling the goodness of Jesus someone who may feel like they  don’t have a reason to exist my testimony may give them hope. Before throwing in the towel of failure, guilt, and shame just know we are all living testimonies and regardless of what we go through in life there is someone out there just like us who went through but came out alright. Our ability to live is within, deep down inside we have an inner strength that we didn’t think we had; we are conquerors, we are victorious, we are LIVING TESTIMONIES.

Amazon Author

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that I would be in the place where I am now,  I always loved writing as a child and one day I hoped to share my gift and finally I am. The journey that I am on hasn’t always been easy, I have encountered bumps in the road when some of the people that I thought would be supportive of my venture turned their backs on me; hurt me to the core but I kept pushing through with tears falling from my eyes. I have come to the realization that I am a AUTHOR; someone out there actually likes what I write and life right now is not what I could have ever imagined but I’m so happy because things are happening that I never thought would. 


There are people that wish the worst upon you, if they don’t have a hand in it they don’t want anything good to come out of your situation. I have gotten more support from outsiders than insiders; what happened to loyalty, encouragement, friendship, happiness for others, love, family love, love period? I guess if it isn’t happening to them they want no part of the struggle until you become successful. I remember at one point in time I wanted to stop and then I thought to myself why should I give them the satisfaction of quitting because they don’t like it? Regardless of who likes what I am doing, I will continue to push forward. I am learning the ones that are faithful at the beginning will be faithful at the end.


They complained the prices of my books were to high but my books are cheaper than a Happy Meal at McDonalds and a Whopper Jr. Meal at Burger King .  An old saying that I was brought up on “when someone shows you who they are, believe them.” If they don’t want you to succeed at the beginning they don’t want you to succeed at the end either. I will continue to PUSH; pray until something happens. I will continue to do what I love whether the support is there or not. Thanks to everyone who has supported me and encouraged me thus far it means so much and I will never forget it! To view my Amazon page click on the link below. 

Sabrina Gonzalez – Amazon Author

Live

If you knew today was your last day on earth would you LIVE? Would you stop worrying about the cares of this world and focus on being happy, or would you let the cares of this world make you sad? All of us wake up with an agenda of what has to be done and by what time; we are not enjoying life because we are too caught up with what’s going on around us, to be frank those things will still be going on when we are DEAD. Please stop putting off today for tomorrow because there is no guarantee that we will even live to see it. 

I have always been one that while cooking I  am also washing up the dirty dishes as well, I never want to come back to a sink full of dishes after a tasty meal and full stomach. Some people are totally opposite and they may do their dishes after their meal, but can you really enjoy your meal if you’re 💭 about those dirty dishes in the sink? My rationality of this is I’m not savoring my meal  if in the back of my mind I have more to do on my agenda so I can’t enjoy that moment. Another example would be if you’re hosting a party, would you want to be in the kitchen cooking or enjoying your guests? Ninety-Nine  percent would say enjoying their guests that’s why they had the party in the first place. To truly enjoy the moment one would prepare their platters in advance so they could also partake in the food and enjoy their friends. Life is meant to be enjoyed not looked upon as a chore. Some people hate life because they don’t know about the joys of living.  It’s the little things that we must be thankful for and it’s only then that we will appreciate the bigger things. Stop thinking about tomorrow, or even the rest of that day, but in that very moment start LIVING, start LOVING, and start LAUGHING in that very moment LIVE!! 

I just want to be Rich

Every morning when I open my eyes I ask God to bless me with riches and every night I close my eyes I ask God to bless me with riches. I am at a point in my life that I am tired of  living paycheck to paycheck and I just want to be rich! I don’t want the kind of richness that you don’t have any privacy like celebrities,  I want the kind of richness that after all my bills are paid I can go to dinner, take my kids to the movies, or an amusement park and not worry about the ticket price, the food, or lodging. 

One day last year I sat down with a piece of paper and brainstormed. What kind of talent could I bring to the table that would  make me rich and successful?   Last year I started this blog and a YouTube channel, and this year I became an author on Amazon. I knew I wouldn’t make a lot of profit doing this, but to get my name out there would be very beneficial. I have convinced myself that you never know who is watching you so keep putting your best foot forward, treat everyone with kindness because a good name goes further than a tank of gas, and don’t be discouraged by a closed door, keep knocking until someone opens the door and lets you in. 

I’m never going to give up on my dreams of being rich, I want a better life for me and my family. I have what it takes to be successful, I have what it takes to be successful and I won’t stop. My favorite cartoon growing up was Pinky and the Brain. I loved the end of each show because it would end like this:

Pinky: Gee, Brain, what do you want to do tonight?

Brain: The same thing we do every night, Pinky – try to take over the world!

You see Brain was persistence day in and day out he never gave up and that’s how you have to be in life if you really want something. My mom would always say “Money doesn’t grow on trees anything worth having is worth working for.” This is one wives tale that I truly believe in, thanks mom….xoxo! 

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