Woke up this morning with a knot in my stomach, just an uneasy feeling of reflection that made me gag. The more I thought about it the more I felt saliva coming to my mouth as if I had to vomit. Who gave you the right to stop loving me? We were supposed to love each other forever and you decided one morning that I wouldn’t exist in your thoughts anymore. You stopped calling, texting, visiting, just crossed my name off on a piece of paper. I’m so hurt, didn’t see it coming because the love that I had for you wasn’t superficial. I could get on your level and talk bad about you to everyone that I know but that’s not me. I guess I really didn’t know you, I guess we weren’t meant to be in each other lives forever, I guess our memories are so far distant you can’t even recall the good times we shared. Life goes on and I have to learn to let go because you had no problem of letting me go.
Driving along in my car headed to some fast food place to get my grub on because that’s what I do when I’m starving. Not familiar with this area, I turn on Google Maps to guide me. As I wait on the light to change with my blinker sounding click clack, click clack, I turn to the left changing lanes to the right headed to my desired destination as my phone recites directions. It doesn’t take me long to reach Chick-fil-A that’s my pick for this evening, I can’t wait to sink my teeth into my delicious chicken sandwich which I will top with polynesian sauce once I unwrap their packaging. The smell of the food overtakes my steering wheel and I find myself in the parking lot of Chili’s, is this a sign that my tummy wants food from here also? I put the pedal to the medal (45 mph) easily blending in with the traffic, weaving and bobbing pretending to be Kit from Knight Rider.
Once I return to my location I realize I didn’t use Google Maps to guide me back. Shocking how quickly we adjust to the voice of someone or something guiding us or showing us direction. At the beginning I was afraid of getting lost but on the way back I wasn’t because I knew the way. My drive became a 101 lesson, note taken. In a 15 minute drive I learned its okay to get directions to where we are going, but while you’re getting those directions learn your way, find your way and remember everyone has had a teacher, amazing how a quick food run became a life lesson.
I woke up this morning with my mind set on deactivating my Facebook account. My mind has been on a social media binge for the last couple of weeks. I wake up looking at my phone and I go to sleep looking at my phone, sometimes I’m so intoxicated with social media I fall asleep with my phone in my hand. I never did drugs for this very reason because I didn’t want anything to have power over me but it seems this addiction is as powerful.
I went to settings several times today and ran my mouse over the deactivate button but could never bring myself to do it. Have you been there? Have you contemplated deleting your Facebook account but haven’t been strong enough to hit the button? Hoping to be stronger tomorrow 😂😂.
When I tell you this was such a magnificent book, I just want to read it again that’s how good it was. When Irene the main character sets out on an adventure she encounters things that will have you happy, sad, angry, etc. Every emotion that you thought you couldn’t feel will be felt. I gave this book 5 stars! I am in love with this authors writing she truly pulls you in and makes you feel as though you’re one of the characters!! To see the full video click the link below.
What is faith? We all claim to have faith, but how often do we apply it to our lives. Webster defines faith as having a strong belief or trust in someone or something. Who are you trusting and believing? Everyday our faith is tested by how we react to situations; do we hold on or let go; and how important is our faith in God. If you were told today that you will die tomorrow where would your faith lie, would you throw in the towel right then or fight the good fight of faith. It seems to me when others are going through we stress that they should just hold on to their faith, but when we are in put in the same situation we give up on the spot. Don’t get me wrong, when you are going through you feel like the world is on your shoulders and you can’t see no way out, but trials are suppose to make you strong. I don’t think you’re activating your faith; the Bible says faith without works is dead. Having faith the size of a mustard seed is not impossible because with God all things are possible. You can’t just sit there and say “faith move on my behalf,” you have to get up and say “faith we are moving in this direction on my behalf.”
What is it about life that we value so much? Is it the materialistic things or the fact that we are afraid to die? I don’t know of anyone that woke up this morning and said “death is better, than living.” I don’t know how you feel , but I love my life and the people that are in it, and it scares me to death (figuratively) that I may be without them one day.
We are all born into this world not knowing a thing, living the first few moments of our lives intuitively. We are clueless from birth but we are all born with intuition, something that gives us understanding immediately.
We have one chance at this thing called life, once we die it’s over regardless of what reincarnationist believe, we will not be reborn into another body when your heart stops pumping its over.
My advice to you all is to LIVE everyday like it’s your last, stop putting off today for tomorrow because we live in the now, not the later. . Don’t hold on to regrets, bitterness, and pain, feeling that way accomplishes nothing.
Stop expecting people to care about you when you die, stop expecting people to care about you when you’re alive. It’s you, that determines if you live a fulfilling life. You should be (L) living (I) inspite of (F) failure (E) expecting greatness. Stop settling and be thankful for another shot at this thing called life.
Living in a small town you can expect everyone to know your mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, auntie, uncle, cousins; you get the picture, LOL. They not only know your family but your business as well. They will gossip about you and tell you to your face what they said. If you weren’t raised in that particular small town you stick out like a sore thumb and you get the evil eye when you try to smile and ease the stares. Small towns don’t want outsiders coming in they are only content with being around the people that they know and grew up with. Who cares if they have only one stoplight and no grocery store they rather travel two hours to get a decent meal and buy two weeks worth of groceries. I live in a small town and I wouldn’t change my upbringing for anything in this world , it made me more humble and appreciative especially when I moved to the city and no one spoke or held the door open; if you were coming they let it slam in your face 😱. It only made sense that my first book would be titled “Small Town Gossip.” Not to toot my own horn, but I’m proud of myself because I did something that some said I couldn’t. If you have a dream don’t stop dreaming, don’t stop doing, keep pushing forward, one no will someday equal a hundred yesssssss! If you want to know what it’s like to live in a small town, please check out my first paperback on Amazon, LINK BELOW.