Every morning when I open my eyes I ask God to bless me with riches and every night I close my eyes I ask God to bless me with riches. I am at a point in my life that I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck and I just want to be rich! I don’t want the kind of richness that you don’t have any privacy like celebrities, I want the kind of richness that after all my bills are paid I can go to dinner, take my kids to the movies, or an amusement park and not worry about the ticket price, the food, or lodging.
One day last year I sat down with a piece of paper and brainstormed. What kind of talent could I bring to the table that would make me rich and successful? Last year I started this blog and a YouTube channel, and this year I became an author on Amazon. I knew I wouldn’t make a lot of profit doing this, but to get my name out there would be very beneficial. I have convinced myself that you never know who is watching you so keep putting your best foot forward, treat everyone with kindness because a good name goes further than a tank of gas, and don’t be discouraged by a closed door, keep knocking until someone opens the door and lets you in.
I’m never going to give up on my dreams of being rich, I want a better life for me and my family. I have what it takes to be successful, I have what it takes to be successful and I won’t stop. My favorite cartoon growing up was Pinky and the Brain. I loved the end of each show because it would end like this:
Pinky: Gee, Brain, what do you want to do tonight?
Brain: The same thing we do every night, Pinky – try to take over the world!
You see Brain was persistence day in and day out he never gave up and that’s how you have to be in life if you really want something. My mom would always say “Money doesn’t grow on trees anything worth having is worth working for.” This is one wives tale that I truly believe in, thanks mom….xoxo!
You took my innocence, you took my innocence, screaming you took my innocence you coward! I didn’t ask for your hands to touch my skin, I didn’t ask for your hands to touch my skin! No one deserves to be raped, no one deserves to be raped, no one! For years I lived in a mental prison blaming myself for something you did afraid to tell anyone so ashamed. I remember being in relationships but not feeling loved and not being able to love back. Always pushing those who truly loved me away ending up alone. I created a brick wall, this was my way of not allowing anyone to hurt me like you hurt me.
I didn’t want to date anyone that reminded me of you so I dated outside my race. For years I sheltered my children afraid for them, knowing someone out there could do to them what you did to me. Yes I sheltered my children, sometimes smothering them, but this was my way of keeping them safe. I could never forgive myself if something like this happened to my children . As years passed I found solace in writing, I was able to express on paper what I couldn’t speak about, it helped me to overcome what you did to me so many years ago. I broke out of the mental prison I was in by forgiving you. I overcame your hold, I overcame the guilt I felt for years, I was able to love again, I was able to do all the things you thought I couldn’t do. I realized I was not to blame, I was never guilty of your actions.
I wrote this blog with tears falling from my eyes because I felt like I was reliving that moment again, but this time with no sadness but joy because I survived to tell my story hoping it helps someone else who has went through abuse. Please, please, please, realize as a victim you are not to blame so never feel guilty! When you forgive you release the hold that individual has over your life. My favorite poem is “I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings” by Maya Angelou. This poem helped me tremendously I became victorious and didn’t let the circumstances around me take control of my life. I am so thankful that I am free from his hold, no longer bound by his actions, I AM FREE!!
I am a black woman that is married to a hispanic man, and my children are biracial. I see nothing wrong with this but some people do. Why does my relationship bother them? It shouldn’t but it does. Most people feel that you shouldn’t date outside your race but love is not close minded. Close minded individuals are afraid of change they live in fear of things that go against what “they” view as right. Love doesn’t see color and if he, she, them, or they, think it does something is wrong.
Some people think that having children that are biracial is wrong because the kids won’t have a normal life, what is normal to them? They say the kids will be called names, the kids will be shunned in public for looking different, the kids will be confused on who they are……HA HA HA I laugh at ignorance.
I raised my children to love everyone no matter the color and don’t be judgmental of others. Let me ask you these questions; Have you ever dated outside your race? Would you date outside your race? Do you see anything wrong with someone dating outside their race?
It shouldn’t matter who you date or marry as long as you are happy. Don’t let anyone stop you from being with the person you want to be with. I remember I was in a relationship with someone (not naming names) and he was a business owner, he couldn’t be with me in public because he would lose business from his white customers because he was dating a black woman. I’m not trying to be in a secret relationship so when he told me this I quickly ended the relationship because I refused to be hidden.
I am so thankful for my family, I wouldn’t trade them for the world. You can’t help who you fall in love with and no one should stop you from being in a relationship with someone you love based on their skin color, be with who brings out the best in you and makes you happy.
As I walked around the MLK memorial tears began to fall from my eyes. I couldn’t believe I was actually there! I was standing outside Ebenezer Baptist Church, a church that Dr. King once preached in, I was viewing clothing that Dr. King once wore, I was standing next to the wagon that carried Dr. King’s casket. As I listened to his prerecorded voice speak the words “I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the Promised Land. So I’m happy, tonight. I’m not worried about anything. I’m not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord” put me in a trance. I believe Dr. King knew he would die but he wasn’t phased by the threats made on his life he stood his ground, he drove out HATE with LOVE.
To know your history is to love your history and embrace your history. I am a black woman and that will never change, meaning from the inside or outside. Martin Luther King, Jr didn’t know me but he sacrificed his life for my freedom. He preached love and not hate. How can you hate someone based on the color of their skin? How can you deny someone a better education based on the color of their skin?
I often say I am glad that the Lord didn’t allow me to live in those days because I don’t think I could have went through what my ancestors endured. My ancestors were beaten and killed day in and day out for being black. Racism is wrong, Hatred is wrong!! I believe that Martin Luther King Jr., was predestined by God, meaning once his work on earth was done he was called home.
Parents teach your children about Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr, his Holiday shouldn’t be taken for granted or viewed as a free day because he lost his life for our freedom. LOVE not HATE those that treat you wrong. This was such an emotional visit for me but I am glad that I got to share it with my family.
Martin Luther King said “I have a dream that one day little black boys and girls will be holding hands with little white boys and girls.” We still have a ways to go but his dream is coming to fruition.
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I am happy to say that I have a written my first book titled “My Natural Hair Journey.” I wanted to share the stages that I went through as a natural and hopefully it will inspire those who feel like giving up and returning back to the creamy crack to keep pressing. Being natural is not easy but it’s definitely worth it. Below is an excerpt from my book.
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My Natural Hair Journey
I believe that we feed our stomachs with our eyes. Have you ever went to a restaurant and couldn’t decide what you wanted so you ordered what you saw on someone else’s plate? All the way there you knew exactly what you would get and once you got there your mind went blank.
I am a seafood lover so when I’m in the big city of Doral Fl, I go to the Red Lobster on 87th Avenue. All the way there today I knew I would get the Snow Crab Legs. I didn’t bother to look at the menu because I knew what I wanted , until I seen my old friends steak and potato pass by headed to someone’s table.
When I got seated it wasn’t a lot of people there but within 30 minutes the place got packed, I didn’t realize that many people would be there on a Sunday.
Okay so here goes the food truth……the salad was delicious, the baked potato was amazing, the corn was tasty, but my steak was tough.
Okay so here goes the customer service truth….the server was nice but overwhelmed, the restaurant was noisy but pleasant.
Bottom line…. I would go back again but I need more biscuits or does Red Lobster have a shortage on bread 🤔.
When I look into my son’s eyes I am reminded daily that God blessed me with a MIRACLE. It’s hard to fathom that this is the same little boy that the doctors said would not make it.
The only thing a mother truly wants is for her child to be healthy, a mother will give her own life so her child may have the opportunity to LIVE!
I will never forget that moment when they took my son after birth to run tests , needless to say their tests would be my TESTIMONY.
“Negative results how could this be, you’re lucky” they said, but I replied BLESSED.
My son is a happy, energetic, and smart little boy who keeps me on my toes, I can’t imagine my LIFE without him.
Not once did I lose my FAITH in God, I prayed day in and day out. I share my story because someone reading this may be going through a hard pregnancy and feel like giving up based on what the doctors have said, please don’t give up.
Doctors tell you what they see and diagnose cases on their studies, but if you have faith and PRAY without ceasing I’m a witness that miracles happen.
My son is now seven and thinks he’s my bodyguard, LOL. To think that the little boy that I once carried in my womb, rocked on my lap, carried on my shoulder, now stands beside me as a little fellow whose smile melts my HEART everyday ❤.