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I’m a sinner saved by grace, just in the nick of time before I would have bust hell wide open. I was not living right at all, and should have been dead along time ago. The older folks would constantly say “Y’all gon’ bust hell wide open,” like they were living clean lives, they were the main ones steering children wrong, clubbing on Saturday and churching on Sunday like they were lined up with God Almighty himself. I know I was doing wrong and didn’t need a person who was worse off than me preaching scripture they never followed themselves. I don’t know what made me so special that God spared me but I can say his grace and mercy gave me chance after chance to get it right. It bothers me to see so called Christians that look down on everyone like they don’t have a past, let them tell it they have never committed a sin so therefore they are going straight to heaven when they die. Those are the ones that don’t speak to you outside of the church walls or acknowledge you within the church walls, but are quick to say Amen when the preacher says something to their liking. Get the heck out of here with that foolishness, you hate me but you love Christ, is that it? You don’t have to love man just the creator, is that it? We are all sinners saved by grace! Deitrick Haddon collaborates with Big Boi from Outkast on a song “We’re just sinners saved by grace,” that song dissects how I feel about people that are holier than thou at their convenience, convenient on Sunday, Bible Study, and Prayer Meeting or when they feel the need to tear down someone who don’t attend church as much as they do. We fall down but we get back up and that is what’s most important, getting back up and not staying down. Stop with the theatrics only Jesus is perfect; you weren’t hung on the cross for our sins, he was!! This is why some people won’t attend the church because they feel worse after attending, sometimes you get more love in the streets from Sinners than Christians. Until they understand that we were all born in sin then maybe the picture will be clearer. I am thankful for God’s grace and mercy and how he forgives and doesn’t bring it up in your face every time you do wrong. I have overcome a lot of the critics because my life is in God’s hand and not in man’s, hypocrites are ruthless they will dispose of you and throw you away to the wolves to be devoured, but God is just and forgiving. The great thing about God is that once you repent he throws our sins away in the sea of forgetfulness.
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Woke up this morning with a knot in my stomach, just an uneasy feeling of reflection that made me gag. The more I thought about it the more I felt saliva coming to my mouth as if I had to vomit. Who gave you the right to stop loving me? We were supposed to love each other forever and you decided one morning that I wouldn’t exist in your thoughts anymore. You stopped calling, texting, visiting, just crossed my name off on a piece of paper. I’m so hurt, didn’t see it coming because the love that I had for you wasn’t superficial. I could get on your level and talk bad about you to everyone that I know but that’s not me. I guess I really didn’t know you, I guess we weren’t meant to be in each other lives forever, I guess our memories are so far distant you can’t even recall the good times we shared. Life goes on and I have to learn to let go because you had no problem of letting me go.
Driving along in my car headed to some fast food place to get my grub on because that’s what I do when I’m starving. Not familiar with this area, I turn on Google Maps to guide me. As I wait on the light to change with my blinker sounding click clack, click clack, I turn to the left changing lanes to the right headed to my desired destination as my phone recites directions. It doesn’t take me long to reach Chick-fil-A that’s my pick for this evening, I can’t wait to sink my teeth into my delicious chicken sandwich which I will top with polynesian sauce once I unwrap their packaging. The smell of the food overtakes my steering wheel and I find myself in the parking lot of Chili’s, is this a sign that my tummy wants food from here also? I put the pedal to the medal (45 mph) easily blending in with the traffic, weaving and bobbing pretending to be Kit from Knight Rider.
Once I return to my location I realize I didn’t use Google Maps to guide me back. Shocking how quickly we adjust to the voice of someone or something guiding us or showing us direction. At the beginning I was afraid of getting lost but on the way back I wasn’t because I knew the way. My drive became a 101 lesson, note taken. In a 15 minute drive I learned its okay to get directions to where we are going, but while you’re getting those directions learn your way, find your way and remember everyone has had a teacher, amazing how a quick food run became a life lesson.
What is faith? We all claim to have faith, but how often do we apply it to our lives. Webster defines faith as having a strong belief or trust in someone or something. Who are you trusting and believing? Everyday our faith is tested by how we react to situations; do we hold on or let go; and how important is our faith in God. If you were told today that you will die tomorrow where would your faith lie, would you throw in the towel right then or fight the good fight of faith. It seems to me when others are going through we stress that they should just hold on to their faith, but when we are in put in the same situation we give up on the spot. Don’t get me wrong, when you are going through you feel like the world is on your shoulders and you can’t see no way out, but trials are suppose to make you strong. I don’t think you’re activating your faith; the Bible says faith without works is dead. Having faith the size of a mustard seed is not impossible because with God all things are possible. You can’t just sit there and say “faith move on my behalf,” you have to get up and say “faith we are moving in this direction on my behalf.”
Living in a small town you can expect everyone to know your mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, auntie, uncle, cousins; you get the picture, LOL. They not only know your family but your business as well. They will gossip about you and tell you to your face what they said. If you weren’t raised in that particular small town you stick out like a sore thumb and you get the evil eye when you try to smile and ease the stares. Small towns don’t want outsiders coming in they are only content with being around the people that they know and grew up with. Who cares if they have only one stoplight and no grocery store they rather travel two hours to get a decent meal and buy two weeks worth of groceries. I live in a small town and I wouldn’t change my upbringing for anything in this world , it made me more humble and appreciative especially when I moved to the city and no one spoke or held the door open; if you were coming they let it slam in your face 😱. It only made sense that my first book would be titled “Small Town Gossip.” Not to toot my own horn, but I’m proud of myself because I did something that some said I couldn’t. If you have a dream don’t stop dreaming, don’t stop doing, keep pushing forward, one no will someday equal a hundred yesssssss! If you want to know what it’s like to live in a small town, please check out my first paperback on Amazon, LINK BELOW.
Small Town Gossip
“That’s just my baby daddy” she said. Women we have to do better when it comes to addressing the father/fathers of our children. I understand he left (walked out) and I understand he may do something today and tomorrow he does nothing, but he is still that child’s father. As a woman I have raised two girls on my own but I never spoke a bad word about their dad’s or addressed them as a “BABY DADDY”. What you may or may not realize the hate you harbor towards their father grows up in that child as well. He wasn’t a baby daddy when you were in love so he shouldn’t be a baby daddy when you fell out of love.
When that child grows up they will see who was there for them, but in the mean time as a mother you be there for your child regardless and be supportive. Don’t you dare take out your frustrations on that child because that man doesn’t want to be with you, but be in his child’s life IT’S NOT FAIR TO THE CHILD. Stop with this “I’m the momma and the daddy foolishness” if God intended you to have two roles then he wouldn’t have created Adam and Eve.
Bottom line don’t hold on to hate let it go for the child’s sake and your peace of mind, if he comes around be cordial and if he doesn’t that’s fine too because God will take care of you and your child, I’m a witness.