Consult God

Something I will never do again is leave my job without having another one to go to. I let the devil convince me to walk off my job in 2006, one disagreement with my boss and I was out. Everyone was like “girl I wouldn’t put up with that,” but no one followed behind me they weren’t foolish enough to leave their 9-5.

The first month I was good and then the money ran out. Where were my boosters? Where was the crew that told me they wouldn’t put up with it? Bills began to pile up, and the fridge became empty. I couldn’t go back and beg for my job they had already hired someone, thought I was irreplaceable!! I cried every night asking God to open a door for me. I was so angry with myself, why did I walk off that job without consulting God?

I remember searching for jobs in newspapers and online I was desperate I had two daughters that I had to provide for. One day I was sitting outside and the Lord told me that he would bless me with a job, but I would have to travel. The next morning I got up and searched online trying to find a job that would match my criteria.

I found one, but it was a 45 minute drive one way. I had made up my mind to not even consider this job; gas, wear and tear on my vehicle…this was a big N to the O!

I called my Pastor and he told me to pray on it and I did. The next week the job was still posted and a urgency came upon me. I jumped in my car and drove 15 minutes to the Workforce Center. I met with a nice lady who called the owner of the company and a interview was scheduled.

I was so nervous I didn’t know what to expect! When I met with the Vice-President of the company she told me I was one of her top prospects and she would like to schedule a second interview with me, but this time another individual who worked for the company would sit in.

I couldn’t sleep that night my mind was all over the place, I kept going back and forth to the bathroom my nerves were overpowering my body. Two interviews later I was hired as the receptionist, and after I received my degree six months later I was promoted to comptroller. I don’t recommend anyone to walk off their job, but if I hadn’t left my old job I wouldn’t have grown mentally, physically, or spiritually.

I am thankful for the Tripp’s! They offered me a job when I didn’t think I would ever get back on my feet. Even though I am no longer with the company we still remain friends to this day and I am thankful that through my job at Tripp Electric Motors I was elevated to the next level of my life. Sometimes we don’t know why things happen and God never tells us why but when we look back we understand it was for our GOOD!!

Revelation 3:8 King James Version (KJV)

I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.


Convo with God

Me: Hit the alarm clock and jump out of bed

God: My grace and mercy woke you up

Lamentations 3:22-23 King James Version (KJV)

22 It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

Me: Glad the day is over

God: A day that wasn’t promised

Psalm 118:24 King James Version (KJV)

24 This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.

Me: Tired of stressing

God: Put your trust in me

2 Chronicles 20:15 King James Version (KJV)

15 And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the Lord unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God’s.

Me: Robbing Peter to pay Paul

God: Whatever you need I got it

Philippians 4:19 King James Version (KJV)

19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Me: Why me

God: Why not you

Matthew 22:14 King James Version (KJV)

14 For many are called, but few are chosen.

Me: Goodnight

God: Pray before you lay

Psalm 42:8 King James Version (KJV)

8 Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.

Christ Like

Are you a Christian, do you treat everyone with kindness and pray for them earnestly?

I asked that question because you have some folks who parade around the church every Sunday professing they love the Lord, but Monday through Saturday their hearts are hardened towards others.

Titus 1:16 – They profess that they know God; but in works they deny [him], being abominable, and disobedient, and unto every good work reprobate.

Some are living to please their Pastor, Bishop, or Priest a man who doesn’t have the power to put them in heaven or hell and are neglecting the fruits of the spirit.

They fail to realize that some people will never come to church or pick up a bible, but they observe Christian living daily by the deacon, minister, choir, lay member, and pastor actions outside of those church walls.

For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth.

You never know whose watching, Christian living is a not a part time job but a full time one. God truly looks on the heart and by your works will he say “SERVANT WELL DONE.”

Jeremiah 17:9-10 King James Version (KJV)

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

10 I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.

Psalms 23:4

The book of Psalms is very mesmerizing, meaning the scriptures leave you wanting to read more. I have many favorites scriptures in this book, but if I had to  narrow it down the one that I rely on daily is Psalm 23:4 “Yea though I walk though the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art  with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.”  This passage speaks to me personally, did you count how many pronouns were in this one verse alone? As I have gotten more into God’s word I have realized that our journey with God is personal.  Hebrews 12:6 says, “For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth,” even though the Lord wants you to worship him, he will never force himself upon you, you must be willing to  have a relationship with him.

Daily I am reminded of how  God protects and watches over me. It’s only because of his grace and mercy that I am still here today. Even when life hands me disappointments I know that I am not alone  because the Lord is my comforter.  I have been faced with so much and I have cried many tears, but when I feel like I can’t go on  I read this scripture and I am reminded that God is my strength. It’s personal between me and the Lord he knows my inner and outer being, he created me. It’s a wonderful feeling to know I have an advocate in Jesus Christ.

Psalm 27:1

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Ungrateful vs. Grateful

No need for me to be up at this time, everyone around me is sound asleep and I’m looking at “Get Out” waiting for daybreak. It’s nights like these I wish I stayed in the big city so I could be surrounded by lights. It seems that I have flipped channels a hundred times which is preposterous, but my DVR, rescued me from boredom. I attempted to stroll onto my social media accounts only to see they were filled with drama. Thinking a glass of green tea would settle me back to sleep was a mistake on my part it only wired me up. On my day off I’m up wishing I had somewhere to go, but if this was a work week I would be wishing I didn’t. Its funny this whole blog has been about me complaining about things instead of being grateful.

Let’s try this AGAIN!

Thankful for another that wasn’t promised, it’s 5 a.m. and I can’t wait to see the beautiful sunrise. I love living in a small town, it’s so quiet and peaceful. Laying in my warm cozy bed enjoying the movie “Get Out” it’s a thriller and with my outbursts I’m surprised I haven’t woken up those surrounded by me fast asleep. Strolled onto my social media accounts and noticed some of my friends are going through some tough situations so I’m going to send up a prayer for them. Looking in my fridge to grab a cool drink and thanking God for all the food I see. I’m blessed to have a three day weekend due to Chalo Nitka festivities this weekend, can’t wait to see old friends. #grateful

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

I don’t know how many people still write to you, but I just want to thank you for being such a wonderful friend over the years. I can honestly say that I have confided in some people that didn’t keep what I told them in confidence, but I can never say this about you. Everything I told you, you never told a single soul and I just want to thank you. I remember as a young child when my grandfather introduced us you were locked up and he gave me a little key. I couldn’t understand why, but he told me things that were of value should be locked up. Even though we went our separate ways when I became a young adult, thinking I had out grew our friendship I just want to say I’m sorry and I’m in need your friendship again. I miss putting pen to paper and sharing with you my day to day; some entries made me laugh, cry, and angry but you helped me to get through it. May this rekindled friendship last a lifetime.



Empowering Women

Women should empower other women, as a woman you shouldn’t be jealous of your girlfriends, but rooting for them to win. I have seen so many women digging ditches for those that are living out their dreams. Why are they hating when they can work hard and make it happen for themselves? Even those that get ahead still hate because they don’t want anyone to surpass them. I decided last night to create a group on Facebook titled “Successful Women Rock!” Hatred has no place in sisterhood, but unity. If we aren’t happy for one another’s success women supporters as we know them will become extinct. Be the supporter, the encourager, the EMPOWERED!!

Even if I don’t know you let’s empower one another. Please join this group to show your support to other women.


I’ve told my story to many and how growing up without a dad almost destroyed my inner being. While others hugged their father and became a daddy’s girl I became my grandfathers daughter because that’s who raised me. I remember asking my grandad could I call him dad and he replied yes. I thought I would eventually get over the way I felt toward my dad but as I have become older the feeling of being abandoned still eats away at me daily.

I have come to the realization that I was a fatherless child, even though his DNA helped to create me the man he was didn’t help raise me. It’s sad and unfortunate because I think I’m pretty amazing. I can recall asking him for $20.00 dollars and his reply of I don’t have it when he wore a neck full of chains and both hands weighted down with rings made me cringe.

No longer alive I can only go visit a grave without a headstone because as he abandoned me when I was a child he had been abandoned in death by the ones he loved so dearly. At his grave an orange flag marks where his head and feet lay. I could say this is karma, but the sad thing is I still love the man who didn’t love me back and even though he never gave to me I’m in the process of giving him a headstone.


Sometimes you write a blog and you have so many emotions running rapidly you don’t even have a title for your writing. You can be happy, sad, angry, or just troubled by life expectancies that you just ramble out words knowing the reader is lost because nothing you’re saying makes any sense only to you because it’s your life. (that’s me right now)

I have put myself in certain situations that I am partly to blame for the people that I let stay in my life, if I don’t evict them they will constantly turn my world upside down. I have let too many people rent space in my heart based on tenure. My friends say “wait until the New Year.” I hate to make New Years Resolutions; why should I wait until the beginning of the year to make a change when it can be done today.

This morning I woke up determined to work on strengthening my heart, for so long I have let people and their problems weigh on my heart. Cloudy, troubled and disdained emotions have weighed me down for so long not waiting to the beginning of the year to evict serving notices today.


You have been downgrading for so long that you forgot an upgrade was possible. You are beautiful and he’s a fool if he thinks your only option is him. He’s told you that no one will ever want you and you believed his pathetic lies. There are still some good men out there; stop punishing them for his actions. Any man who loves you will not hurt you with his words, any man who loves you will not hurt you with his hands. It’s time for you to upgrade, It’s time for you to move on knowing that you are better off without the abuse and lies it’s time for that upgrade!